To live anew…

Hello gang!

So it has once again been forever since a new post to the Neal Family Adventures. Life happens.

I was inspired today by a wonderful piece of music. I am a fan of good tunes, and those that fall into the house category are often a fav. Today’s feast is a new addition to the Fresh Page website by Erwin Tjoe and it made me feel great as I listened.

I had been reminiscing a bit early this morning about a FaceBook update I had made earlier in the week; I had mentioned how great it would be if we were able, if only for an hour, to reconnect with loved ones so we could tell them how much we loved them and could share with them about some of the things that had been going on since last we saw them. This thought came to me while I was reading Dan Brown’s The Lost Symbol. Mr. Brown is the man who wrote the DaVinci Code and this book tells of the mysteries of the Masonic Order and how there is something secret going on in Washington DC. I won’t say more than that since you can check out the website and read an excerpt of the book for yourself. I wasn’t thrilled at the idea of the DaVinci Code but the excerpt I read of The Lost Symbol (in Parade Magazine, that came with a Sunday paper a few weeks back) made me want it. I read all 509 pages in about four days and the first thing I wanted was to share it with my dad, to get his opinion on the validity of the Masonic references. From what I remember of his days in the Order, it seemed pretty accurate–it brought back memories I hadn’t seen in my mind’s eye in years. It made me miss him. Interestingly, I was more interested in sharing this book with my dad than I was to share that I had completed my doctoral degree this year. I of course wanted him to know that too, but reading this book and experiencing the memories–the images of my mom and dad dressed to go to a Masonic event, my dad in his regalia for a cornerstone laying, my Nana in her Eastern Star whites–was overwhelming. Those thoughts made me think of all the folks I miss, that have gone on before me, of all the things I didn’t get to say or do with them; it made me imagine what I would do if I could go back in time, change some things, and see them–even if the ultimate outcome would be the same.

I would go to my dad and tell him about this year–my graduation, this incredible book that revealed a lot of the things he kept so secret…

I would go to my Nana and tell her about my family–show her a picture of my son who looks so much like her son…I’d ask her to tell me the family secrets…

I would go to other family members and friends, share the stories, gather the love, and bring it all back with me to the now, to live life anew…

Saturday, October 10th, 2009 Confessions of a Cave Dweller

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