Distraction is a many-splendored thing…

Hey gang! I actually started drafting this post on Saturday; here’s what I had:

It’s Saturday and we’ve been at the Relay for Life most of the day; Christopher is a survivor so we’ve been walking laps, thrilled and thankful for his having been given more time.
Taking the laps has given me time to think more about whether I have been listening to God about ‘life, the universe, and everything’. Don’t think I’ve done a great job at it, actually.

I did that at around 9:30pm on Saturday evening and haven’t been back since. I’ve thought about it, in between everything else I’ve been thinking about. I don’t think I’ve been very productive lately…been doing quite a bit of introspection (what else is new?) but not much else. No, really. I’ve been a lump.

Which gave me time to ponder the concept and reality of distraction. So I was at the Relay on Saturday and everything hurt by the time I got home; I continued to hurt through church on Sunday, and then into Monday as well. I’m not in any kind of shape so I can’t categorize it as “good” or “bad” shape. Sad, really. Anyway, the discomfort I felt was minimized by the fact that I acquired an mp3 player most specifically to have during the walk. My tunes were awesome! I didn’t fiddle with it on Sunday but when I went to try it on Monday it didn’t work, so I had to take it back to the store and get another one (turns out it was a faulty USB cable). So once I got that figured out, I moved on to another technological issue–my blackberry. I have the one from Nextel and as it turns out the operating system on it is unique…other blackberry’s don’t use the same one. To that end, none of the themes I found out there worked on mine; I spent about a day and a half searching for something suitable and finally found it last night at crackberry.com. I am also considering creating my own themes, which sounds like it will be great fun for me.

I say all that to say that distraction is a many-splendored thing. I was so busy and distracted doing nothing, or next to nothing, that I neglected to think about how bad I had been feeling emotionally. This is something of the good side of distraction–it keeps us from doing what we shouldn’t, as in my case it has helped me not dwell on the negative for quite so constant a period. Don’t get me wrong–I am still devastated at the loss of my most excellent friend, knowing that I will not get to ever see or talk to him in this space/time continuum ever, but it’s all sort of been numbed away by distraction.

The bad side of distraction is that it keeps us from doing what we should do also. I have been very neglectful of my devotional reading with Christopher and I have not done my Adult Sunday School lessons in about two weeks. I’ve got to get back on track, and quick because I have far too much to do that I shouldn’t be distracted from.

It has felt good to do almost nothing, to be a lump, even if only for a little while. I guess I’ll have to save that for lazy Saturday afternoons in the sun…come on, summer!

Wednesday, May 6th, 2009 Confessions of a Cave Dweller

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